"So I have been having a long internal dialogue for a long time trying to decide my goal if I want to try to dissolve the ego or not." Who has been having this long internal dialogue? The one who is having this dialogue is just thought. A thought after a thought after a thought; there is no internal dialogue. There are just thoughts. Thought is talking to itself, essentially. You are none of that; you are the pure awareness that is aware of the internal dialogue. Internal dialogue is just a thought. Whose goal to dissolve the ego? The one who has the goal of dissolving the ego is the ego itself. The ego can't dissolve the ego. Only by remaining as the pure awareness that you are will the ego be dissolved. This is not a choice of the ego whether the ego will be dissolved or not. "I know in spirituality a lot of people share the goal of not acting of ego but I don’t look as ego as such a bad thing." Who doesn't look at ego as a bad thing? It is the ego itself. The ego is not a bad thing; it is merely the personal identity; aka the root of all suffering. To say it is bad is false; it is what it is. To identify as the personal identity will bring suffering. It is simple. It is not a matter of "good" or "bad"; you don't have the free will to choose anyway. Only the source of creation will choose at the perfect timing whether the ego will be dropped and the body-mind will be self-realized or not. So do not even bother thinking about such matters. "An ego is what makes us human or atleast part of being human and we are here to have a human experience so as much as sometimes I get irritated by the little things or make debates just because I think I’m more right than the other person I am in a cross roads where I don’t know if it’s inherently a bad thing." Ego is not what makes you human; there is no human in the first place. Human is a thought; what you are referring to as the beingness that simply is; unnameable; already is without any ego. When you were a little child; you were completely fully human yet you had no ego. Ego is merely identification with personal identity and its thoughts, emotions, sensations and perceptions. There is no need to believe that the ego is of any use. Ego is literally just a thought identified with. Nothing more. Thoughts do not want to disappear and dissolve; so they lie to you by saying "Ego is essential to being human or to being"; ego is not essential for anything, it is merely a play of the divine. Even after ego-death you, the self, source of all creation are still here and still are able to experience duality although from a non-dual perspective; you will understand duality and the identification with personal identity but with no attachment to it; with no belief in it; with no identification with it; and therefore suffering will be no more. No one says it is a bad thing, but when you say "I think I am more right"; that is just a thought. Would you really like suffering for a mere thought? The thought is pretending to be important, useful; as if you need to hold on to it. It is merely the root of all suffering, there is no need for you to hold on to thoughts or to say "this is my opinion" because actually the opinion is just a thought and the "I" that holds this opinion is also just a thought. "At first in my journey I kept my ego in check very well, not to the point it was dissolved completely but I was able to catch it when it did arise and it was good and I was happy. Gradually I’ve felt the shift where my ego comes back into play and I find my self having different emotions less peace more rage (but not anger) I still try to keep it in check if other people’s feelings are on the line but I have sort of just been allowing it to flow and observing it for the time being." Who kept the ego in check? The one who kept the ego in check was the ego pretending to be you. You are the pure awareness; you can't keep the ego in check. All you can do is be aware of being aware, the ego will automatically be dissolved as you rest as the awareness. It is not yourself who was having different emotions, less peace, more rage; that is all the dream. You are aware of all of that; it is not occuring to yourself; it is occuring to who you think you are. And because you identify as who you think you are, you suffer the projections of who you think you are. So the personal identity is suffering from its own projections. The one who is trying to keep the ego in check is the ego; the ego is misinforming and deluding you to believe that you are self-aware and are aware of the ego and its mechanics. No, the ego is pretending to keep the ego in check; but who is keeping the ego in check really? Who is there to keep the ego in check? To keep the ego in check means you have transcended the ego, or you are at-least aware of the awareness. You say "I try to keep it in check" meaning that is a thought; there is no "I" and the one "trying" is also a thought; so all of it is pure delusion. "My questions are •What is your opinion on the ego? •Do you think I should try to dissolve my ego? •If you feel like you have little/no ego present currently what are the benefits and negatives of this state?" The source of all creation has no opinions about the ego, it is merely a play of the divine for the source of all creation. It does not take it personally, it does not think, feel, sense, perceive or have any opinion about thoughts. It is only aware of being aware. (pure being)You can't dissolve the ego; the one trying to dissolve the ego is the ego; so this will not work. To have no ego means you are self-aware as the source of all creation, you are free of personal identity and consequentially the source of all suffering for the personal identity is the root of all suffering. Once you are self-aware as the source of all creation then there is no one to have any benefits or negatives. All benefits or negatives are the play of duality and are only relevant to the personal identity. The source of all creation does not perceive "benefit" or "negative"; it has no care for such trivial matters that are only of interest to the ego. The source of all creation merely is and just by being itself it is automatically enlightening the whole universe and dissolving suffering and ignorance for it is the truth and the source of universal love, peace, joy, compassion and wisdom. Please donate any amount (at the moment no money to even buy food) to support the existence of this body so it can continue being an instrument of god to share wisdom, peace, love, joy, compassion with you 🙏🏻:
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