Someone asked for help, and this is the answer that I believe can help many people, you can change the circumstances and it will still apply to you, the situation itself is irrelevant because this is about something universal and beyond situations etc.
But it still bothers me
Try and see in the present moment who is this "me" that it is bothering. The obvious answer would be "its me, what are you talking about?" but I am asking you to really see and see if you can identify what is this "me" in the present moment, is it an idea, is it a concept, is it a thought, an emotion, a sensation, what are you really? Question yourself: "Who am I?" and do not take any answers from the mind. No matter what thought comes, it won't be true, because a thought won't be able to express the truth that you are. Notice the experience of being aware in the present moment, and rest your attention on the awareness that is aware of the present moment. All problems and suffering arise because we have not identified that which we truly are, pure consciousness, pure undisturbed detached consciousness that is aware of absolutely everything, it is serenity itself, and that is our true being.
When attention drifts towards these mind problems, we must simply shift back the attention onto the awareness of the experience of being aware, and rest in that. Stay with that. Do not leave that. Trust that. Love that. Do not let it go, and you will see and be what you truly are and what your true self really is, this self is unbothered, it doesn't mind, it is only aware. It is only being. Stay as the being. Be aware of being aware.
I think i am highly sensitive to noises and lights, because i get really really irritated from loud noises.
You see, you identify yourself as this thought that says "I am highly sensitive to noises and lights" but it is not true. Do not buy into it. It is totally false and totally not true.You are just "I am", do not add anything to that! Leave it silent. Be aware of the silence. There is nothing to add upon the silence, it is absolutely perfect. Praise the lord.
I dont want to feel so irritated. I tried to stay in the present but its very difficult. I also worry about being seen as the annoying neighbour (they already gossip about me).
You see, now that you identify yourself as one who is "sensitive to noises and lights", you also get the consequences of putting yourself in this shape, and now you also buy this thought of resistance because you identify with that shape, "I don't want to feel so irritated", well, your true being is NOT irritated. It is completely peaceful, but you are identifying as a thought, not as the being.
The being doesn't need to "try" to stay present, the being simply is. When you shift your attention onto the experience of being aware, you are automatically put in the position of the being, and now you ARE present, choicelessly. So simply be aware of being aware, and boom you are present. It is completely simple. It is effortless, not about "trying". The awareness itself is the present moment, so when you shift your attention towards it - you are present automatically.
I also worry about being seen as the annoying neighbour (they already gossip about me).
You see, you also mistakenly identify yourself as "one who worries" because that is also merely a thought appearing in the vast being and consciousness that you are. You are not the thought. Do not believe it. What you truly are does not care about any kind of gossip, because it is in no need of external validation nor does it care about thoughts of other people. It is simply aware of all these thoughts effortlessly, and rests the attention itself on the awareness itself.
How do i stop feeling so irritated? And how do i stop worrying about what people think of me?
God just gave you everything you need to know dear one ;)
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